I Need To Write Notes

to my babies. I feel like I HAVE to let themknow how much I love them and I;m sorry that I can't/couldn't be with them more.
I know they won't remember me because I don't even remember Grandma Anne well and she died when I was 13. I just doubt I'll make it until any of the little ones are that old.
AEmilia and Gareth are so sensative at times. I hate when Ann gets loud with them. It really seems to scare them, I never want them to feel fear about what they are doing.
Miss Megan will probably never remember me at all. She is so happy and so sweet. I hope it continues that way. Bran is so great with her but the problems she and Jay have about her not going back to work right away may cause big problems if Jay doesn't grow up real fast.
Ari and Ev will still have Chris to be a great grandpa for them. I wish the other kids lived close enough for that but I doubt they'll see him after I'm gone, He barely gets to see them now.
Oh well, it is 1 AM and I need sleep not morose thoughts. I just miss them all so much right now.